Stillnes

It is amazing what can happen when one sits still. This morning I sat in a chair and was drenched in thankfulness and gratitude. I closed my eyes and lifted my hands to God in praise and devotion. Oh, how glorious it felt.

Tonight I am sitting still and am in enveloped in a sadness and confusion, wrapped in the blanket of loneliness, wondering why I must sit alone. I don’t like this feeling and I wonder will there ever be a night when I find myself still and this feeling is long gone and far away.

When I sit still I hear so very clearly, whether I want to or not.

That Feeling That I Get

I remember what it feels like. It feels so good. It feels like floating on a cloud. It sounds like the popping of a bottle of champagne. It smells like something sweet and delicious coming right out of the oven. It tastes like a fresh strawberry covered in chocolate. It looks like him. Oh, when it happens it appeals to all of my senses. When it happens…but it hasn’t happened in a while.

I think it is safe to say that it hasn’t happened in months. I’ve not been enchanted by or with any man in some time. I long for that feeling though. I long for the feeling and just as much if not more I long for what that feeling makes me do.

It makes me smile from ear to ear. It makes me blush. It makes my heart jump. It makes me laugh and giggle at random moments. It makes me want to ensure my hands are always soft so that at anytime I can rub his, massage his back, caress his face and bring him warmth and energy. Oh, to be enchanted by a man, to fall under his spell.

I wish for a man to cast his spell on me again.